Eyes open

And all your known folks start feeling distant...

And all of them feed from your bright energy.

And when you take a moment to think about your dark days,

You can even recall names.

Cause they haven't been there, 

Cause they didn't notice.

Cause you're just an additive,

Never the subject.

Day 75

Day 75 sober, decided to go out for a drink and a dance.

Same annoying people, same emptiness.

Feeling like a loner.

3 loght drinks and already feeling like when I used to bottoms up a bottle of 14% margarita.

Time moves forward,

People and situations don't.

Trying to find that joy that used to come out of me naturally and fill a room.

Loathing...